It has been an interesting few months for me and my discernment process. I’m not entirely sure if it has completely broken down or just taken a few steps backwards. As it is for the moment, my committee is scheduled to meet again on Aug. 18th. I still have not completed the last “formal” assignment the committee gave me back in May. However, I am going to work on the essays over the next week and see if I can’t get something done for it.
What I’m most trying to figure out right now is what to do in the near term. I have an interview with a company to teach english in Japan on Aug. 9th. I’m still trying to decide whether or not I’d take the job if it is offered to me. On one hand, it’ll be an incredible experience. I’ll get to live abroad for a year, work on becoming semi-fluent in another language and eat lots of sushi. On the other hand, the timeline to head off to seminary will be most definitely postponed. One of the things that I’m wrestling with however, is whether or not my summer hiccup hasn’t already pushed back seminary until at least 2008. If I do end up accepting a position in Japan, I will probably move my stuff down to Eugene and do some temp work there until I leave in order to save as much money as possible.
If I do end up deciding to stick to the current course of action and stay in Portland there are things I must decide here as well. Things with my roommate have still not recovered to a point where I’d like them to be. I’ve made an effort to move on from the anger and hurt I felt from his actions of a couple months ago. For the most part that has made things a lot better. However, every once in awhile, I really get a little down because he doesn’t really make any effort to include/invite me in/to things even though I have. So I’ll need to decide whether or not I need to find a new place to live. It just sucks sometimes feeling so alone in a place, even though you have a roommate…and feeling alone even if he’s there.
So that’s where things are at for the moment. I’m not sure if I’ll post again until after the discernment committee gathering on the 18th.