I realized that this was first thanksgiving I've ever had without spending some time with my family. It's kinda weird how much its got me down, since holidays at home are always kinda stressful. It is a weird dynamic, even though they often get on my nerves, I would give pretty much anything to have been home this weekend.
I'm struggling a lot right now. I'm not adjusting as quickly (or easily) as I thought I would. I'm not doing my job as well as I thought I would. I'm doubting if its really the right fit for me. Which makes me doubt whether or not the vocation I've been journeying towards is really where I should be going. I miss Portland. I miss the rain and grey skies.
But yet, I do not doubt that Los Angeles is where I am supposed to be right now. I can't completely explain it and it often doesn't make a lot of sense to me. Things aren't all gloom here either. I've got a couple of old friends that live down here that I get to hang out with once and awhile (though not enough). I've also got a new close friend that I've met since being here. I've found a really good church (in Beverly Hills of all places) to be a part of. These are some of the things I'm thankful for this weekend. I'm also thankful for my friends in New York, Portland and Eugene...who've listened to my whining over instant messaging chats.
I'm struggling a lot right now. I'm not adjusting as quickly (or easily) as I thought I would. I'm not doing my job as well as I thought I would. I'm doubting if its really the right fit for me. Which makes me doubt whether or not the vocation I've been journeying towards is really where I should be going. I miss Portland. I miss the rain and grey skies.
But yet, I do not doubt that Los Angeles is where I am supposed to be right now. I can't completely explain it and it often doesn't make a lot of sense to me. Things aren't all gloom here either. I've got a couple of old friends that live down here that I get to hang out with once and awhile (though not enough). I've also got a new close friend that I've met since being here. I've found a really good church (in Beverly Hills of all places) to be a part of. These are some of the things I'm thankful for this weekend. I'm also thankful for my friends in New York, Portland and Eugene...who've listened to my whining over instant messaging chats.
Remember, if you change your mind Eugene still needs a local microbrewery/theater.
That is tempting some days. You gonna be the capital?
Hey Ryan...well, it IS a hard job. I should know. I think it's a lot harder than people think, even people who have seen it up close. And discerning vocation is also a hard job, harder than one might think. So hang in there. One step at a time. You're not alone. Even aside from friends and family, you are not alone.
I had a hard Thanksgiving too, so I'm with ya. Nothing takes the place of family, I know.
Peace to you this night.